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No. 06 <br />Kind Cam Corder<br />Pub. 2026<br />
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<h2>Conversation with the Cat - (small sample)</h2><br />
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Girl - What does it mean to be still?<br />
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Cat - It is that special part of life that is ignored by most. Doing and preoccupation<br />
<br />
is easy. To busy the mind with a task or a distraction keeps thoughts away, stops<br />
<br />
the mind from feeling and thinking about the life which one is experiencing. There<br />
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is a certain difficulty to stillness, to let the world skip by like a rabbit in the field;<br />
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with out following, you simply allow it to run on. To be still is to practice that part<br />
<br />
of nature that is being.<br />
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Girl - But what of doing? I can’t help but be pulled by distractions, any all those<br />
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parts of life, others and the act of going and seeing.<br />
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Cat - Of course there is time for both, but there is no better than here. Life has a<br />
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way of consistency, it is the same for all creatures, whether you stay here or chose<br />
<br />
to chase the world, you may find you struggle with the same questions, the same<br />
<br />
act of not knowing.<br />
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Girl - But the world is out there, how can I learn of the world if I do not go and<br />
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experience it for myself?<br />
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Cat - The world is all around you, no matter where you are. I have never seen the<br />
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great sights or met many different people, yet I am them. Most often, searching<br />
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for answers outside the self leads to more more questions within. Seeing and<br />
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believing you know the lives of others is circular, you still do not know yourself<br />
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until you find the time to be still and to discover that individual soul you hold. The<br />
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others are just a lake reflecting onto you.<br />
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Girl - Yet it feels like a waste of the so-little, precious time to simply sit around.<br />
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Cat- You can never waste your time, for your life is yours. If you should choose to<br />
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use it making money or getting high, this is your bidding. However, what may be a<br />
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waste is if you never find fulfillment though those things, and the truth most find is<br />
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that you will not.<br />
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When you have spent your life seeking the external, in the end you may come<br />
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to realize you never knew what it is you wanted. Rather that you performed, be it<br />
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for yourself or the people, you acted as you supposed you should, acquired what<br />
<br />
you believed you desired, or acted in accordance with what others told you you<br />
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should want to do. This may hurt you more deeply than any other act you commit,<br />
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to deject the inner world, and end up empty. That is why time to understand the<br />
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self, which comes with stillness is the least waste of time I can imagine.<br />
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Girl - I can understand, however when I find the time to be still, to think of these<br />
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supposed soul deep desires, the questions trample and flow with no end. It is a<br />
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trap to be still, passivity may lead to madness!<br />
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Cat - Do you fear yourself? Do you shy away from those difficult to ask questions,<br />
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hide in a world of colorful distractions and endless daydreams?<br />
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Girl - Oh, I don’t like to think so, but I suppose when the world overwhelms with<br />
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vague questions which only give way to arbitrary answers, it is easier to ignore the<br />
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whole thing all together. What is it worth knowing if the truth is so ugly and<br />
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depressing? Maybe the distractions of life keep this at bay, maybe that is reasonenough.<br />
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Cat - You shall never be satisfied by those frivolous parts of life, the soul demands<br />
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attention. Life will leave you the questions, whether you contemplate the meaning<br />
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or not; there will never be enough to distract the mind for the condition set onto<br />
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you by the universe. Let yourself be full of questions, and learn to let go of the<br />
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fear you hold of discovering the answers.<br />
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Girl- So how then? How can I learn this “way of stillness”? How did you master<br />
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passivity?<br />
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Cat - I can teach you to practice stillness, but you must embrace passivity in your<br />
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own way. Suppose you are me, for I am a simple house cat. I may not be plagued<br />
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by your complex human responsibilities, however this leaves my time free to learn<br />
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stillness, and gives my mind an open meadow to ponder on all the true questions<br />
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of life. This may be your first step, to let go.<br />
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Rid yourself of these monotonous tasks and worries which burden you<br />
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constantly. Think not of your finances nor your physical pleasures. All those<br />
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confusing relations to others and questions on the way the future may unfold, or<br />
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why the past happened in the way it did. Steady your mind to your present<br />
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moment, give away troubles to what you hear, what you can see around you,<br />
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grounded by the physical sensation of the heavy chair you sit on. Let your mind<br />
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melt off the outside world and find physical stillness.<br />
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This task is the hardest to achieve, for the world moves and desire to engage<br />
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is most times irresistible. But just for a moment, try.<br />
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Now you may begin to simply watch. See that bird flying over, or the way the<br />
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leaves dance in the sunlight on the wind. Appreciate the beauty which is most<br />
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present to you, for nature is in a constant state of wonder. Show gratitude for this<br />
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beauty, then you may begin to feel. Do not resist the rush, let it over come you.<br />
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Cry, be the emotion, you may find that you are closest to yourself when you do not<br />
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withhold against the natural swell.<br />
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Without your emotions, you work against yourself. If you have physical pain,<br />
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ignoring your aliments can only cause the suffering to last longer. Our minds are<br />
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often able to reject feeling, but by allowing this block you only prolong some<br />
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buried expression. Permit yourself. Be a stone in the flow, passing over and around<br />
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you, to be carved smooth until that constant river simply slides over without<br />
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resistance.<br />
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Now your are ready to be still.<br />
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Girl - Life is overwhelming, how can one person be tasked with so much? I do feel<br />
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like a stone, but I’m sinking, drowning in the tide.<br />
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Cat - Ah, but you are not. Life is full, but that is its nature. You shall learn to bear<br />
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the weight, until one day it shall lift. We hold onto everything, people and<br />
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mistakes, you will allow it to wear u down and brittle your bones. By the time you<br />
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are still young you could be carrying so much, you let your own will crush you.<br />
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Understand that your life happens in each moment, if you clutch onto the past or<br />
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worry for your future, what is there left to run your hands across the grasses<br />
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around you. Why hold so much heaviness? Choose to be light.Girl - You say to be a stone, now you're telling me to float. Which is it? Don’t<br />
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contradict yourself, say what you mean.<br />
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Cat - I have, be both. Duality is the way of the universe, for some days it rains,<br />
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then the sun shines. The forest needs both to grow. Imagine yourself a water lily,<br />
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you bob on the surface, yet your roots anchor you to the bottom of your spirit. It is<br />
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possible, to find the balance for nature does it all the time. A lesson in stillness is<br />
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to let nature be your guide. You find yourself here surrounded by the great forest<br />
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of ancient lands. The perfect place to observe and understand the influx of the<br />
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earth, let her show you the way to being.<br />
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Girl - I am confused, you have lost me among these trees.<br />
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Cat - Then you have found yourself at a thousand cross roads. Sit here in the<br />
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fallen leaves and needles with the ants and the rodents, be still; all which is<br />
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scrambled will unravel here.<br />
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Girl- I do not even know how to begin… What questions come first?<br />
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Cat - You have already begun, and your first question has been asked. As the<br />
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world turns so should you, even when you find stillness, the universe is in motion,<br />
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suddenly you have found time to feel that subtle movement.<br />
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Cat - You will see by the end what I have meant. Give yourself a try. It is a life’s<br />
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work to attempt to know the self and dig caverns to, as you very well put, arbitrary<br />
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answers of those “questions”.<br />
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Do not feel discouraged or frustrated, for it may take time before the sitting<br />
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stops feeling like work, until it becomes peace. This is the hardest part of life, until<br />
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it becomes a piece of you. Everything in time, and here you are with months<br />
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stretching head of you. Have time and nature heal you, be patient with the process<br />
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for it takes all summer for the wildflowers to bloom. I shall see you in a few<br />
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months, when the lichen has grown over your skin, and you will know stillness.<br />
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<i><h2 style="color: rgb(3, 129, 0);">Lotus Memories (small sample)</h2></i><br />
The man sat at the bar, drunk. One in the afternoon was brimming with heat, city streets turned to melted sap. The bar was dark and cool, tucked in an unremarkable corner slot in the shadow of a city bank. Passing in and out all day, no residents of the bank had glanced sideways at the tiny door. It had the feeling of being unremarkable, but that is what the bar’s clientele preferred. When one wishes to escape the world, they may find themselves in all types of locals such as this one. Small cracks filled with sand, filtering out the truly lost. Small cracks filed down those stronger desired states into just the basics. Drinking at two in the afternoon was simple when one had ceased worrying about the ramifications. <br />
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So two becomes three and six and nine, the man sat without fully draining one glass before ordering another. It was always the first Tuesday of the month which hurt the most. By luck or design the bar had no windows, so the hole became the void and the void did not permit memories to pass through its walls. When the bar had been closed two Tuesdays ago on account of the snow, the day had been impossible to grind out, spitting the man out the other side of the dark damp night. <br />
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That night two Tuesday’s ago. The streets had been completely drained, glowing under the falling sky and lamp light. The man had faithfully wandered to the bar, only to be met with a locked door. With no windows it was impossible to know if anyone was still inside, on days like this one the bar owner could still be found laying in one of the booths, left over from the night before. Pounding on the door a few minutes passed before the man turned back to the street. Empty eyes fell on the empty street, submitting to the snow which fell in large flakes onto his bald head he looked up at the bank. It was unremarkable, glass and black metal. People still moved behind the walls, diligently punching away even as the bar, and the rest of the city, rested in preparation for the frosted wind. They were kept warm and working inside the cold facade, each person blurred into one shapeless form. It was unnerving watching them, silent and mechanical. A women passed by on the second floor, admiring the falling snow out the window before her eyes shot down to the man, locking directly into his. <br />
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The eyes of the women were lotus petals in the pool of glass. Warm, trees bloomed vivid and full of fresh fruits, it was freshly spring supple with new beginnings and forgetting. The memories hadn’t come with him this time, there had never been a day of fighting the loss, the death rattling scream of his little girl was merely a shrieking laugh. There was no such Tuesday when his life had become a dark pit from which there was no relief, trees flowed with floral rebirth. The sun spent<br />
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